For the past couple of months I’ve been talking to my ex. Not often, but once in a while we’ll send each other a text. I still love him. I miss him so much. Especially now that he doesn’t even live in this country. I want him back. I don’t know what he wants. Or how he’s feeling. I don’t know if talking to him is doing more damage then good. I’ve tried moving on and letting go, but how do you let go of someone you’ve given everything to, someone you love with all of your heart?
I hate that I let myself fall so damn hard. Heartbreak fucking sucks. I can’t handle it. Everything reminds me of him. It breaks my heart looking at my walls and seeing all them empty spaces where the pictures of me & him were hanging. All I did was love him. I gave him all of me. He has my heart & I don’t know how to get it back. I’m so angry with him for doing this to me, but i can’t help at the same time to still be absolutely head over heels in love with him. I’m just the girl who fell for the boy that would never truly be hers. 3
I’m trying my absolute hardest to be strong, but I miss him so much. I’m heartbroken. I can’t believe it’s over. After almost 3 years together…..it’s over. I really wish things would’ve worked out. We were so good together. 3
Everything will be ok in the end. If it's not ok, it's not the end.
I’m sitting here in my room trying not to stress over the fact that I might be pregnant. Since I was a little girl I’ve had a plan for myself & it didn’t include a baby until I was married or in a very serious relationship. And just sitting here thinking about it makes me really scared. My boyfriend is stressing just as much as I am. Neither of us planned this, but regardless of what happens I know everything will be ok. If I am pregnant I am going to dedicate my life to this baby. I’m going to work hard and give this baby whatever it needs. I’m going to teach it the values that were taught to me as a child & give it all the love I possibly can.
I dont want sex, i want the things that lead up to it. The slow kissing then the passionate kissing, then the pulling closer, the neck kisses, the grabbing, biting, heavy breathing, grinding, the pauses while you catch your breath, feeling each other. Oh my.
if you want a nice body, go get it. if you want to become a lawyer, study your ass off. if you want nice hair, pick a style and get it done. stop being afraid and motivate yourself. find yourself. find your happiness, because it’s out there waiting for you.